Soo....First. this community owes me nothing and your not my therapists or anything of sort. Dont read unless you want to.

Ptsd. Noncombat. Something i sorta struggle with apparently. But no memories of the events. Well no like firm memories. Sometimes it gets me and the days are rougher than id like. Im not sure i should even post this. Obviously ive never told anyone other than my therapist. And i wont go into any detail here. They think it might be cptsd and im concerned about that. I dont like the idea that somethings wrong on a foundational level. It feeds right into my moods. Im really trying to fix it though. This year has just been a little rough to be honest. But most days im fine. Posting this makes me very anxious but ive read it can be a good idea. Im going to post this againest my better judgement and im really sorry lol.