That's not fair. Why do you treat my survivability like an infinite resource? Why do you always come to me with questions and think you can rely on me, as if it's a good trait and not a proof that you failed in not forcing me to take responsibility for you and bear everything alone? Why doesn't any of you think about the fact that I also feel bad and that I feel sick because you like what you did to me? Why are you happy about how 'good' and responsible and grown up I am, even though I'm still just a child too? Why do you constantly help and provide her with opportunities, tolerate her behavior and make concessions to her, but I cannot allow myself to do this because I know that you will either be offended or hurt or will say terrible things to me? Or even if you have changed, and this is quite possible, I will feel violated by you if you'd know. Just thinking about it makes me sick. What should I do?..