AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH OMFG!?!!!! ASDFGHJKL!!!!!! There's gonna be a new music video with Till V.S. Luka! Omfg omfg omfg, it sounds so good even though I only heard a second of Luka's vocals! Meanwhile, as I fangirled over that. I listened to Ivan's song "Black Sorrow" and oooooooooh mfg. It still shatters my heart and uplifts me all the same. Like damn it hurts so bad but good at the same time. It makes my soul feel solace that a fictional character written by someone else could feel the same twisted, dark emotions, I have towards longing, devotion, and love.

Just, it helps knowing I'm not messed up or alone and at the end of Round 6 Ivan chose to let go of all those toxic dark one-sided feelings to give up something Till needed the most even if Till thought he couldn't live on anymore. At Till's core he'll always be a person who strives against adversity, is rebellious not because for rebellions sake, but because freedom and giving hope to others by being himself. That's why Ivan loves Till, that in the second Till ran back to save one of their friends during the meteor shower. Ivan could never resent Till always true to himself even when it risked their chance to freedom.